Ambitious Girl

Every Girl Should Listen To This. Us Men Aren't Perfect...But A Lot Of You Ladies Need A REALITY CHECK!!!!

I relate to BackPack Rappers more than I do any other rappers such as Wale, Drake, Kid Cudi because I'm not scared to be myself AND I'M NOT A THUG OR GANGSTA...I'm a school boy...I graduated college LOL. Check the lyrics below and see if Wale talking about you ladies!

Ambitious Girl...

Your drive, drives me crazy

I'm tryna stay with you

Lay with you, i'll pay your tuition

pray wit you if you aint into wishin

I'm tryna fuck the shyt out your ass-pirations

The last one I dated i hated

We wake up I go to work

She leave out come back

wit some make-up, high heels, and a purse.

So worse I ask her, Baby-girl what you inspire to be?

She replied to me like, why you perspiring me...Bitch.

Pardon me if i'm sweating you but,

I wanna see something else in you, before i invest in you.

Ambitious girl wat it hittin for,

I rather you tell me to hit you later cuz you gotta finish a paper

than to be in my face asking for a rose' cup.

See these bitches cant cut in your business.

I'm in love with your business.

And your productivity Is the reason I interest.

Ambitious Girl.

See I like the person that you are,

But i'm in love with the person you have potential to be.

And all your dreams sharing wit me.

Secrets bearing with me.

The flaws you ain't even gotta mention to me.

Ambitious Girl

You just wanna win.

You'd rather chase your dreams

than to try and chase these men.

That try to chase these skirts.

That try to chase these shots,

With flavors that aint even as sweet as her.

Ambitious Girl

I wont forget you,

I'll just reflect on how I ain't met you yet boo.

You somewhere, getting your life in order

So for this time being,

I hope this open scribe will support her,

Go girl, Go girl, Go girl

Who in the hell is Big Meech & Larry Hoover?!?!

"I think I'm Big Meech...Larry Hoover...Whippin' Work...Hallelujah" B.M.F (Blowin' Money Fast)

The 1st time I heard this song was when I was on my way back to home from Miami Memorial Day Weekend (Which was a splendid time might I add LOL). Rick Ross's street team was passing out his mixtape "The Albert Anastasia EP".

So I decided to ride home to it since I only live an hour away from South Beach. "B.M.F." is track #3 on the mixtape and when I first heard it, not only did I fall in love with it, but I start thinking to myself "Hmmm...I know I heard of them names before", LOL. Now Larry Hoover is a name I learn in college and the show that BET used to run "American Gangstas" LOL. But the name Big Meech I heard from the rappers such as Fabolous and Young Jeezy numerous times. So after I played the song about 15x back to back, I started thinking...WTF did these guys really do? So I did what anybody else would do...Wikipedia...LOL!

Big Meech

The Black Mafia Family (BMF), was a multi-million dollar drug trafficking organization originally from Detroit, Michigan, with direct links to Mexican based drug-trafficking cartels and with major hubs in Atlanta and Los Angeles, that in 2000 dove into the world of hip-hop music and entertainment, successfully promoting not only Young Jeezy but also BMF Entertainment's sole artist, Bleu DaVinci. Founders and brothers Demetrius (Big Meech) and Terry (Southwest T) Flenory would ultimately be convicted of running a Continuing Criminal Enterprise and sentenced to 30 years to life.

The Black Mafia Family was known for throwing upwards of $20,000 in $1 bills in the air and at strippers when at the club. They frequented many upscale Buckhead area clubs outside Atlanta; to name a few: Club Chaos, Velvet Room, Justin's, and Compound (where "Meech" had a lavish birthday party for himself, with live displays of exotic animals, costing well over $100,000.) Receipts found in a house that was allegedly one of Meech's showed cash purchases of over $23,000, in a single trip, to Bang & Olufsen, a high-end audio retailer located inside Phipps Plaza. When going to the club, upper-level members would be seen in their own individual high-end luxury cars. In one commonly available video, it shows a Rolls-Royce Phantom, Bentley Continental GT, Lamborghini Murcielago, and Aston Martin Vanquish all parked together and all owned by BMF members.

In October 2005, it was reported that some 30 members of BMF were arrested in a massive drug raid orchestrated by the DEA. During these raids, the DEA seized $3 million in cash and assets, 2.5 kilograms of cocaine, and numerous weapons. Prior to the October 2005 raids, throughout the course of the investigation, the DEA had arrested 17 BMF members, seized 632 kilograms of cocaine, $5.3 million in cash, and $5.7 million in assets. They would claim BMF was responsible for moving over 2,500 kilograms of cocaine a month throughout the United States.

Demetrius "Big Meech" Flenory, as well as his brother Terry "Southwest T" Flenory, was charged with continuing criminal enterprise (similar to Racketeer Influenced and Corrupt Organizations Act (RICO) except used in drug cases) conspiracy to distribute 5 kilograms or more of cocaine, possession with intent to distribute more than 500 grams of cocaine, conspiracy to launder monetary instruments, and two counts of possession with intent to distribute more than 5 kilograms of cocaine. Demetrius was captured in a large home in a suburb outside Dallas. Inside, police found a small amount of marijuana and a few MDMA, or ecstasy, pills. In a safe inside the house were several weapons; a Springfield .40 pistol, FN Herstal 5.7x28 pistol, and a Para Ordinance .45 pistol. Outside and in the garage were a 2005 Bentley Continental GT, a 2004 Ford F-150 truck, and a 2004 Dodge Magnum station wagon.

Larry Hoover

Larry Hoover (born November 30, 1950) is a convicted American murderer and the alleged leader of the Gangster Disciples gang (also known as the Black Gangster Disciple Nation) in Chicago. Hoover is reputed to be the leader of the gang in spite of the fact that he has been in prison continuously since 1973.

On February 26, 1973, Hoover and another Gangster Disciple, Andrew Howard, shot and killed William Young over a debt. Both were later arrested and sentenced to 150-200 years in prison. Howard was paroled in 1992. In 1974, after the death of David Barksdale, Hoover was appointed the new leader of the BGDN.

Two years later, Jerome Freeman left the BGDN, making the Black Disciples and the Black Gangster Disciples separate gang organizations. Even in prison, Hoover gave orders to his gang members and directed their illegal drug trade. On July 22, 1978, an inmate riot at the Pontiac Correctional Center in Illinois resulted in the death of three corrections officers. This uprising was rumored to have been ordered by Hoover. 21 inmates were indicted; ten were acquitted after an 11-week trial. Charges against Hoover and seven others were eventually dropped.

Hoover's continued involvement with the gang prompted a federal investigation. The five-year undercover investigation by the federal government led to drug conspiracy, extortion, and other criminal charges against Hoover. On August 31, 1995 Hoover was arrested at the Vienna Correctional Center by federal agents and moved to the MCC Chicago. In 1997 Hoover and six associates were found guilty of these charges, and Hoover was transferred to a federal prison in Terre Haute, Indiana to serve a life sentence. Hoover is currently serving a life sentence at the Supermax ADX Florence facility in Florence, Colorado.

NOW AFTER YOU FINISH READING ALL OF THAT, LISTEN TO THIS AND LEARN SOMETHING REAL YOU CAN RELATE TO...BECAUSE YOU & I ARE NOT GANGSTA! LOL

My Biggest Fear...COMMITMENT!

As I look back into my life, I realized that I have it good. Both my parents are still together and have been married for 24 years, I'm an only child so my family STILL spoils me to this day, and I'm an official University of Wisconsin Alumni. So there not a lot of things I can complain about. But if I do have to pick one flaw about me, it would have to be COMMITMENT!

Love, Yea I heard this word a lot in the last...Oh 5-6 years of my life. To be honest I heard it so much that I ran away from it. As stupid it may sound, I had women give me the world and I give them the answer like I gave every other girl...MAN I'M GOOD. I'M JUST TRYING TO FOCUS ON SCHOOL AND FOOTBALL. Man what a punk I was now that I think about it. I mean I was focueds on what I wanted to accomplish in life. Yes, some women can definitely slow you down. But looking back on it over the years the lord has "Introduced Me" to really GOOD WOMEN. I mean I'll run out of fingers and toes on how many GOOD, BEAUTIFUL, QUALITY, SMART women I've met that wanted to do anything and everything for me just to be with me and keep me happy. And they always say the same thing to me, "OH I DON'T WANT A MAN RIGHT NOW, I JUST WANNA BE FRIENDS. I KNOW YOUR SITUATION WITH SCHOOL AND FOOTBALL. I JUST WANNA GET TO KNOW YOU"...CHILD PLEASE....

Me, being the nice guy that I am, I love to be friends with anybody and everybody. But it never fails, girls will get deeper and deeper feelings for me because she never met a guy like me thanks to her EX'S that treat her like a dog. Or the 2nd time we see each other we "SOMEHOW" end up having sex and now emotions and feelings are everywhere now. We all know females are more emotional than males, but when a man tells you that HE'S NOT TRYING TO GET SERIOUS ANY TIME SOON, but you think you can change his mind by having sex with him, IT'S NOT GONNA WORK! You can't get mad at anybody but yourself. It never fails. But the women that I'd be in these situations with, these women are in EVERY BLACK MAN'S DREAMS. Who's stupid enough to say, "No I'm not ready to go out with you"....ME...WHY, WHO KNOWS?

During my college years and up to now, I've manage to see and go through a lot of different things in my life. I've seen my homeboys be in relationships (Close & Long), I seen my homeboys cheat on their girlfriends, I've seen my homeboy's girlfriends cheat on my them, and I went through so call many "Open-Relationships" with girls during college (I never heard of Open Relationship until Facebook came up with it LOL). Now we're not all perfect, and the society we live in today is NOTHING like the ones our parents grew up in (Imagine what our kids are going to have to go through). My Father raised my mother great. My mom talks about all the time how she "Lucked Out" into bumping in to my father. Dad went to work everyday, managed to coach me from age 4 all the way through High School, and still had the time to keep my mother satisfied. So you would think I'd be the "Relationship" kind of guy, but I'm far from it. The situations I've been in for the past 5 years of my life hasn't given me the chance to fall in love with anybody yet. All these situations thaught me a lot of things about relationships, and the main thing I got out of this whole deal was NEVER GET IN A SERIOUS RELATIONSHIP UNTIL YOUR READY TO GIVE YOUR SIGNIFICANT OTHER ALL THE ATTENTION SHE DESERVES!

Now my father and all the men in my family told me the same thing..."Women are ALWAYS going to be there". And I have to find this true. As my brother from other mother first told me when we first moved in together in college, "P*ssy is like water...It's 75% of the earth!" LOL. We men have the advantage when it comes to the saying "On To The Next". But when you have something so good in front to you, why wouldn't you just stay put and stay with that person? Being in this situation more than once (And I do mean MORE THAN ONCE) I will be a man now and call it GREEDY & IMMATURE! When I say this, I'm not talking about having a relationship and cheating on your BF/GF (Because that's wrong too) I'm talking more about staying single and available for any woman that wants to take a chance with you. Some people call it being a Bachelor; some people call it being a Pimp/Playa, but what ever you want to call its Greedy, Immature, or Both!

I always told myself that I'll never get serious until after I reach age 25. But as of right now, I kind of want to settle down and just get with a girl. And treat her like I know how to treat a lady. To be honest, this is the most I ever felt this way ever. There's a lot of candidates out there that show me that they can be the lady for me at this very moment. But that's the problem, there too many good ones to pick. I guess you can say I have a "Good Problem" on my hands (If that's even possible) but the other problem I got is that I can't quite get over that "Commitment" hump like I want to. Plus, if I do start a relationship with somebody else, how am I going to explain to the women that are "In Love" with me that I'm with somebody else now? We all know y'all ladies are crazy when it comes to love (LOL its true). I can hear women now saying "Grow Some Balls Punk" LOL. Yes, life isn't fair. And yes, I've got to do whats best for me. But at the end of the day, I'm too nice and care about people feelings to much.

That "I'm young, I want to DO ME and HAVE FUN" line is getting played out now. I'm tired of saying that. I talked to enough women to make a 30 yr. old man feel like he needs to step his game up. LOL I did this "Single Life" thing for a long time, and I have it down to a T. Even though you can do whatever you want when you're single, here's are some negative to being single...

Negatives

When you're lonely..that's what you are..LONELY!

I realized that juggling more than 1 woman, let alone 3,4,or 5, is hard work. Like having 2 jobs and one of them you're not getting paid for LOL!

You gotta keep your game tight because you're single. You still can't let a girl know you're talking to other women. Women like to feel special in almost every situation..And that's hard work when you're dealing with only 1 girl.

You can't have sex whenever you want. Most of the time you're "Trying to take advantage of the OPPORTUNITIES when they come to you", LOL

These are just a few of the things I've encountered while being single. Now, I know there some people thinking "Jaevery is crazy, he know damn well girls are gonna read this" LOL. Yes, I know that, but trust me, single women are more dangerous than single men. They can be ruthless, LOL. That another topic...Back to me...But as of right now I really feel like I want to settle down. But I still feel something holding me back from "Fully Committing" to do this. From something as stupid as a freaking "Facebook Relationship Status" to having to answer people that ask me "Do you have a GF"? I want to be able to commit and start a relationship, but I'm scared to fully commit and I don't know why. Hey, at least I'm being a man and admitting it, some of yall ladies are getting cheating on you right now and you don't even know it...or you do know it but you just give it the "Cold Shoulder" SMH. I don't believe in cheating, WHAT GOES AROUND COMES AROUND and KARMA is a B*tch. But I'll get over this fear soon, but as for right now...Pray for me that I get over this, because I want to! :)

Digital Digital Everything Digital!!!

Say what you want about the kid, but Soulja Boy is doing his thing! I don't know why a lot of people hate on the little dude. Young, successful, black man doing something positive that's not going to get him in jail. He might not be a "Lyrical Heavyweight" but the kid do be making hits...Turn My Swag On...Pretty Boy Swag...of course Crank Dat...and now Digital!!! This song beats soooo nice in my car! I approve this song by Soulja Boy!

The Infamous "N" Word...

So round 2:30 AM Tuesday morning I was up playing Call of Duty II on my PS3 (Any girlfriend that has/had a man that own an X-Box or PS3 know what I'm talking about LOL). Me and my ex teammates from UW Antonio Fenelus was in the same game online playing with 10 other people somewhere around the world. So I had my blue tooth headsets on so I can talk to people who also have a mic and so people can hear me. And me and Fenelus ran across this one game where it was like 3 other cats that had on headsets also. So listening to the guys talk, you can tell they was white, and I'm sure they can tell we was black. Now before I start I try not to say the word "Nigga" while I'm playing this game, but I end up saying all kinds of bad words that it really don't make sense LOL.

Than next thing I hear it "HEY...HEY NIGGERS...", Now this haven't been the 1st time I ran across a racist player, but it was more than one in the same game ganging up on us LOL. So after I realized that wasn't Fenelus saying that, I just bust out LMAO! Like seriously I was dying laughing, and I think it caught the white guys off guard. So after I was laughing for a about a good minute straight, I think it was the white guys intent to try and "Piss Me Off", because for that 10 minute game,THEY LET ME HAVE IT!!! But I'm not your ordinary Nigga! LOL

Convo While Playing Call of Duty

White Guy #1: So What your name NIGGER? Or should I say SPEAR CHUCKER?

Me: LMAO...What is it to you?

White Guy #1: I bet you don't have a job...Where You work at NIGGER?

ME: As of right now your right, I don't have a Job, I just finish doing Rookie Mini Camp for The Washington Redskins a month ago.

White Guy #1: What did you say? You said you Shine Shoes for a living?

White Guy #2: What NIGGER? I cant understand you...Open your NIGGER lips and talk NIGGER!

Me: LMAO HAHAHAHAHAHAAAAA OMG Yall Killing Me over here man. This is hilarious.

White Guy #2: Damn NIGGER get a Job!

Me: LMAO...U know What...Yall sound like Yall dont get enough Pussy in yall life? I bet yall bully people in High School just so yall can feel better about ya self LOL!

White Guy #1: Bro I just proposed yesterday, 1K ring!

Me: Aw really? (Yea Right) That was up man. Congratulations!

White Guy #1: Thanks...YOU NIGGER!

Me: SMH...LMAO...Wow Yall so racist that it hilarious!

**3 Minutes left in the game**

Me: Damn man I swear I'm shooting these guys and they still are killing me.

White Guy #3: Maybe if you hold the gun sideways you'll kill somebody YOU NIGGER!

Me: O__o...Bro That was the MOST LAME SHIT I EVER HEARD...Try again man, you can do better than that!

White Guys #1,2,&3: **SILENCE**

After the game the White guys left the game lobby, and I start dying laughing tell Fenelus how racist that last game was LOL. Now after this happen I went on twitter and updated my status (Yes I'm on Twitter and I was told my life is pretty entertaining LOL @JaeMacAttack) and one of my followers @JesseThat1Guy92 (Follow Him) sent me a YouTube link about the "The N Word". (Now the video is 14 Mintues long, but it pretty interesting to watch. But if u wanna just hear some funny stuff start it at 9:30 LOL)

Now after watching the video I started thinking...

Man, Should I have taken that situation more seriously and be offended?

Should I care?

Was I wrong for laughing?

Well I be honest, there actually some white people That I call "My Niggas" (Very few though LOL). And I be honest again, Theres a couple of my white home boys that can say the word "Nigga" and I feel perfectly fine about. Now they don't use it 24/7, and my white homeboys are not the "Wannabe Gangsta White Boys", these guys are white as can be. Usually its them singing a song, reciting a line from a movie, or even trying to explain a situation. But the point I'm trying to get across is that I feel just as comfortable hearing my white friends say it, as well if they was black also. Now, am I wrong for feeling like this...Maybe/Maybe Not.

This bring me back to my college days at UW. Where I was the only black dude in the class, or if I was lucky enough, the only 2 or 3 black people in the class LOL. In my "Racial Class" where we talk about different races, we will get to the black race and the professor would start talking something like this....

White Professor: Whomp Whomp Whomp Whomppp Whomp Whomp A NIGGER Whomp Whomp Whomp Whomp!

Every White Person In The Class: **Turns their heads and look at me**

Me: **Thinking in my head** WTF Yall Looking At? *Charlie Murphy Voice* LOL

White Girl: Whomp Whomp Whomp Whomp Whompppppp NIGGA Whomp Whomp Whomp

Every White Person In The Class: **Turns their heads and look at me**

Me: **Thinking in my head Why in the hell everybody looking at me** LOL

LOL Man those was some awkward moment in class, but at the end of the day that stuff really didn't bother me. I mean if a white person is racist now a days I just laugh at them. Because its 2010 and anybody that dealt with slavery 500 so years ago is not with us right now...white or black. And YES, even thought Racism is still alive in the world, its NOTHING compared to what are Parent's Parents Parents Parents Parents had to deal with. Seeing a white racist person now-a-days is funny to me. I mean C'mon Bro we got a black president now...GIVE IT UP!

OBAMMAAAAA!

Now before I get a text, or a Facebook message from some "Black Power Brotha that talk about the white man behind his back, but get into serious relationships with white girls" dude, I love being black and everyhting about it. AND YES, I do know about my history, BUT at the end of the day ask yourself this...Is it really worth it getting all in your chest because some white person stoop so low and called you a NIGGER? Is it really worth it whopping that white person ass because they called you a NIGGER? If your asking me this I say NO!

NOW, dont get me wrong...There are BLACKS AND WHITES that act like NIGGERS/NIGGAS out there in the world that deserve to be called the N Word...but if a white person got the balls to call a black person a NIGGER for no reason and that black person wants to whoop their ass...than so be it. I have no problem with that LOL White people know what they getting theirselves into when they say that word. But why when its not gonna do any good for the slaves that died more than 500 years ago. Martin Luther King is not going to come back from the dead. And when a white person do call me a NIGGER, I'll just give him the "Bro, Are U Serious" look, and walk right by him, because anybody that say that word to you just wants to piss you off and make you day worse...also just PALIN IGNORANT!!!

Now there is ONE TIME where a white person can say the word "NIGGER"...I'll let my boy Chris Rock explain to yall about that :) LOL